the waiting game-venting

cd 27 and i'm still waiting i have my doc appt on thursday. jumped the gun and tested yesterday got a BFN, i was so mad even though i knew there was a good chance it wouldn't work this cycle, seeing that all my mature eggs were on the blocked tube side.

my hubby just left yesterday for training then afganistan i feel so alone right now. we froze his sperm so i could try 1 more month and if it doesn't happen i'll just have to wait till next year when he gets back home. i miss him so much already.

i'm on this progesterone i'm so tired of this shit leaking everywhere yuck i just wanna be pregnant is that too much to ask? been trying for over a year and a half i'm just getting so tired of going through all the motions.

God help me cause i'm losing my mind