me so lonely

damn this deployment sucks!!! i just keep thinking what the hell am i gonna do for 9 months but go crazy!!! i'm so lonely and i know he feels the same way. he called me yesterday from there and i just couldn't believe he was that far away from me. i just want my hubby home safe!!! arrrrgggggggggggg has 9 months passed already?

psychics??????????????

i know that you're not suppossed believe in them and that they are against God. but Lately i've been wondering if i called a psychic would they tell me when i would have a baby? i know this sound extrememly crazy but sometimes my mind just wanders in crazy directions. i know this is probably stress and a bit of depression talking. just needed to get it outta my mind and written down somewhere. i'll be fighting with myself to try and not to go see one. anyone feel free to slap some sense into me!!! or just pray for me and my sanity!!!

its been a while but i'm back

hi ladies oh do i miss blogging I've got some catching up to do. things have been so crazy i am now just getting life back on schedule. lets see updates on me hubby came home on Aug. 12 for 3 days and we had a blast!!! we tried to everything we could in 3 days but we ended up spending most of the time in bed lol. he left back to N.C. that Friday the 15Th. well the following Tuesday i ended up driving 15 hrs to N.C. to see him b4 he flew off to afganny. once again most of our time was spent in the hotel room lol!!! I'm hoping somehow a miracle happens and i get pregnant naturally (there were no drugs this cycle) this is my last shot til June 09. but we had fun and I'm gonna miss my baby like crazy. yesterday he flew out to afganny he said it would take about 3 days including some stops in Kansas and Ireland. please pray for his safe return!!!

then at work my schedule changed i now work 7pm-5am I'm still not used to working that late and all i do is sleep and get ready for work. so hopefully I'll get used to it soon because i miss writing. i think that's why I've been so bitchy lately on top of hubby leaving i can't express my feelings. this writing is really therapeutic!!! well that's the update on me now on the catching up on all of u guys news

God is Good in the mist of Chaos

OK so I've been offline for about 3 days now. a tornado category e-5 hit my city of Griffith, Indiana. i got the call from my brother at about 9pm i was at work and had no service, i finally checked my voicemail at 2am and hear "the apartment is fucked up i can't get in" i left work early and rushed home scared of what i may have found. the streets were pitch black and i was so scared praying the whole time. i drive up and all you see is blackness and trees fallen everywhere. my neighbor drove up at the same time so we went in the back way together, my front door was blocked by up rooted trees.

using my phone as a source of light i open my door expecting to find chaos. i open the door and nothing was touched on the inside. THANK GOD!!! i know i was so blessed!!! i leave to go stay with my mom. i come back the next day and outside looks like something out of a movie. trees up rooted, glass and roofing shingles everywhere.

traffic was bumper to bumper so i decided to walk to where the tornado hit the hardest. i cried like a baby. to see all these home without roofs i just started praying for all those families. houses were split in half, roofs were gone, sides of peoples houses were blown off, cars were smashed by trees and 100's of dead birds everywhere. except for one God has a way of giving a sign of hope. that one bird just sat on the ground and couldn't fly everyone was taking pictures including me. they will be posted later. one house had the whole roof, front and side blown off and the only thing intact was the wall with selves that held bibles.

we lost electricity for about 3 days but the damage around my house is nothing compared to what others have!!! just want to send all the prayers we have to all those families who have lost their homes!!! Thank You God for putting the blood of Jesus over my home and keeping it safe and barely damaged!!! Thank You God.

Its crazy since this happened i haven't thought once about IF. I've just been thinking how i can help all these people who need so much assistance!!!