The Waiting Game!!!

Boy does this waiting suck!!! well 1w down 1w to go!!! i can do it i can make it right? so i'm having some light cramps today. implantation? i hope so.

i had a dream last night that i was swimming and i could actually breath underwater. so i looked it up on the internet and it says some women in there first trimester have dreams of water and swimming. i know i'm reaching but i'll take anything to keep my hopes up!!! i'm praying for a miracle. i just keep thinking how i will feel if its positive? omg i don't know what i'd do. oh what if its negative? i'd probably cry and be very sad since i wouldn't be able to try again til june 2009 when hubby gets back from afganistan. wow that's such a long time i'm tearing up just thinking about it!!! ok skip that i'm gonna stay positive!!! this is my time!!! and its gonna be positive!!!my miracle is in progress!!!